Saturday, March 24, 2012

Violated

Last night, between the hours of 12am and 7 am, my laptop disappeared from my room.  Well this may not seem like a big deal to some. But the fact that I was there, in my room, in my bed, asleep, while my lovely MacBook Pro disappeared, puts it on a whole other level.

I am not one to put too much value in material things.  Yes, I hate that my laptop is missing, but I can replace a laptop.  It may be inconvenient and a little costly, but it can be replaced.  The fact that some creeper was in my room while I was asleep in my bed and I didn't know is extremely disconcerting.  I feel so violated, like someone was in my safe zone, and I wasn't the one that let them in.  That may not be a very good metaphor, but it's the best I've got at the moment. The world I come from is not one where these kinds of things happen.  I was raised to believe that people are usually good, I'm not saying that I'm completely na├»ve, but I never thought that this would happen to me.

Given that nothing else in the room was touched, they didn't take the charger, the TV was fine, my roommate's laptop was also fine, and my purse was untouched, including my debit card, I know that this was a crime of opportunity, not against me in particular.  But, with my personality, I can't help but take it as a personal attack.  What did I do to someone to make them do this to me?  Was it something I didn't do?  I generally get along with everyone, so I can't imagine someone disliking me enough to do something like this.  I want to be angry, I really do, but I want my anger to go to the deserving target.  Since I have no idea who did this, or why it happened, it just keeps falling back on myself.  What did I do wrong?

Yes, I have followed all the right channels, and have filed a report with the police, but still.  This is very much a personality trait of mine, sometimes it's good, sometimes, not so much, but I like to handle my own problems.  There is no way that I could handle this myself.

So, time to pray about it, put it behind me, and move on.

1st step: Do some research on a new Mac. (because I do love them, no Windows for this girl).



God Bless,
Mo